I'm with y'all..
Still in. In body only. For the missus and a parent. When the parent passes, I reckon I'm out.
The missus knows I have doubts, the elders know too (long story ) and I'm not ALLOWED to talk to her about them, as that would be looked on as trying to take her faith away. Ridiculous. The thing is, she doesn't seem to WANT to talk about anything spiritual at all. As soon as she does though.......
I'm viewing meetings as "supporting the missus in her hobby" as if it were a knitting club she was nervous of going to by herself. I think she's getting that message too!
I feel spineless at times, butI think the long game is worth it for me.